“What can you do for me today…”

I knew it was my imagination playing games with me, but I didn’t care at all. I wanted this kid to be my little slut and I’d be damned if I was going to let a good feeling moment like this go away. A rumble of him and he came hard in my mouth. I spit it out of course but it just wasn’t the same when I looked up and saw a panting Emil. He lay next to me on my bed and put his arm around me. I didn’t want him. I didn’t want him to be the one lying next to me. He was a good fuck when it came to me being a top for him but it just wasn’t what my mind was craving, nonetheless I needed to let out frustration and Emil was there.

It was Thursday and tomorrow was my chance to start talking to Hector. Emil gave me a kiss as I pretended to be tired. Locking the door behind him I just wanted to yell. I could feel my conscience getting to me; I was messing with this kid’s heart. It made me feel like the scum on the bottom of Lindsey Lohan’s shoe. I just really wanted Hector that bad. I wasn’t even sure if I got close enough to him that he would even be interested in me. I had to look good and young. I decided that tomorrow me and Emil would go and choose something for me to wear. As I was lying in bed, my mind was going a hundred miles an hour; thoughts were cascading through my mind like I had dropped the E.

In the morning I called Emil and let him know I wanted to go shopping. In the mall I was thinking to myself of how stupid I was by imagining him and thinking of him all the time. I wanted to get over him so badly. Trying on things from Aeropostale was boring and I owned everything from Pacsun, pretty much. Inside of Anchor Blue I was looking over this shirt that was black with a nice blue décor on the front. I grabbed this shirt and put it in my hand for the party. I walked towards the jeans and was thinking some skinny jeans would not look to good on my shape of legs. Turning around to ask Emil if they looked good I saw Hector grabbing the same black shirt! He only went in line with that shirt so hopefully he would be wearing it that Friday. Emil picked a pear of jeans with tears in the legs that looked pretty decent. His little eyes happy that I was wearing something he picked out. In a way it was kind of cute to see him so excited over something so simple. I looked around the room to see if Hector was still around. He had just left and he met up with the heavyset girl! She looked a bit clingy but he didn’t mind it.

Shortly after we ended up heading to eat something at the food court. I wanted Panda but I could tell Emil wanted Subway, so we went to Subway. I felt stupid once again for overreacting to Hector’s purchase but it was just something odd to me. My craving for a guy like that was becoming unrealistic. It was already late and tomorrow was the party so I left Emil at home and went