“Are you sure you don’t want to come? It’s gonna be fun and I haven’t seen you for days. Come on, it’s just gonna be three of us.” She was pleading but I couldn’t give in.

Of course I wanted to go, but I couldn’t bear to look at my sister, not after what had happened two weeks ago. I didn’t mean for it to, but I couldn’t help myself. “No really, I’m just way too tired. I gotta go. I’ll talk to you soon.” It hurt me to be this way but right now there was no other way I could be.

“Ok, fine. But listen, we’re going to have a long chat tomorrow.” Her voice was part playful, part serious. I knew she was really worried about me and I worried about how she would react when I told her, if I told her.

“Ok, it’s a deal. I’ll see you tomorrow. Come over to my apartment. I’ll be here all day.” I hung up the phone relieved to have one more night to think things over. One more night to try to come up with a way to explain how things came to be, how I came to betray my sister by sleeping with her husband.

Of course I realize it wasn’t totally my fault. He was just as into it as I was, and actually he was the one who initiated the whole thing. He came over to my apartment with some lame excuse about wanting to talk to me and that’s when it happened. That’s when he fucked my brains out. I don’ t regret doing it; truth be known I would do it all over again. It was the best fuck of my life. I just wish it had been with someone else.

It had all started out innocently enough. I had just gotten out of the shower when I heard a knock at the door. I had been expecting a package to be delivered so I quickly slipped on a robe and went to answer. It was Jake, my sister’s husband, at the door. He said he had something he wanted to discuss with me and he actually looked quite concerned so of course I let him in. At first I thought it was quite strange that he would come to my apartment alone; we had never been really close. I just always assumed he didn’t like the fact that I was gay, but he made my sister happy so I was ok with it.

Deep down I was very glad he kept his distance. To be perfectly honest I had always had a crush on him, ever since the first time we had all gotten together for drinks. He was very much the boy next-door kind of guy, without much of a personality but with all American looks that got him far in life. He had deep blue eyes, an adorable crooked smile, and this nice tight body thanks to years of playing soccer.

After I let him in, I excused myself and went to my bedroom to put some clothes on. I closed the door behind me but didn’t think to lock it. I didn’t think I had to. In my room I let the robe fall to the floor and walked over to my closet. I didn’t notice him come in until he was right behind me. I could hear his breath hot on my neck as his arms wrapped around me. His body pressed into