had told me of using different things on himself; toys, vegetables, bottles. He seemed to really enjoy my putting in three fingers. If I had only one in, he would ask how many and then he was never satisfied until I put in at least three.

I left without saying a word, just slipped out the front door. I had been staying with my sister and her roommate for about a week now. It was a vacation of sorts. All I could think of was Kurt and how much I enjoyed seeing him when I was back in my hometown. We had gone through high school together, pretty much being our only sexual partners. Then we both decided to try sex with girls. I must admit, he was better at getting the chicks than I was. Not that I am not hot. Well, I am much more muscular now; I was a bit scrawny back then. He just decided that females were more exciting in bed. I can’t fault him for that, but I was really feeling a bit left out and jealous when he got married. I think that was when I realized I had been in love with him.

The thoughts of his body joined to mine were getting to me, making me so horny. I had been sleeping on the couch in my sister’s living room, but had moved to her queen size bed since no one was home. I started to stroke my penis, pulling the foreskin back and forth over the head. I really did masturbate way too much. I needed a boyfriend. I thought I heard a small snicker and looked up, Tessa had opened the door to her room. There I sat, naked, jacking off in my own little fantasy. I stopped jerking myself; she left the room. A small part of myself was not ashamed at all. I put on my clothes and went out to the living room.

"Tessa, I’m so sorry."

"Really Todd, you couldn’t wait until you went home to Cali to do that."

"I know, I was a total jerk. You forgive me?"

She walked over to me, and hugged me. I was trying to calm myself down, but was still erect and wondered if she felt it against her body. My face flushed.

"I think I will go for a walk Tessa. Need anything at the store?"

"No Todd, not that I can think of."

I couldn’t get out of the apartment fast enough. At least she didn’t suspect about Kurt and me; his having a wife and kids. She may have accepted my liking guys as just experimentation, but she still wished for me to get married to a woman. She also would never accept my being with a married man. She always had a crush on Kurt, too, when she was a kid. Kurt and I both knew it and I don’t think he ever took advantage of that fact, but I never asked him either.

I walked into the mini mart looking to buy a drink, when I saw him. I couldn’t believe how hot this guy was; beautiful brown eyes, muscular build. My mouth was hanging open for just a split second, then I grabbed the pop out of the case and headed up front to pay. Putting my hands in my pockets, I realized then that I had left in such a rush that I forgot my wallet.

"Shit. I