I'm a white guy in my early 50's and had been what you might call a "Flaming Heterosexual". I have had numerous relationships with women (both long and short term) and had never thought of what it might be like to be with another man. However, sometime in my middle 40's, I began to fantasize what it might be like to submit to a guy and though I did not act out my fantasy I could not stop thinking about what it might be like.

Finally, I worked up enough nerve to buy a gay porno flick and after viewing it over and over, I found that I was becoming increasingly excited about "giving it up" to another guy. Having absolutely no idea of how to go about it and being the logical methodical guy that I am, I began surfing the web and eventually settled on a couple of chat rooms where I set about to get as much info as I could.

Most of the guys that I chatted with were extremely helpful giving me the lowdown on about everything that I needed to know. Most of them were pretty unanimous on a couple of things. First, each guy was careful to tell me that it was best to find a top guy with plenty of experience. Second, for a first timer like me, it would be best to be opened up by a guy with a small to medium-sized cock.

Of course, I was a bit incredulous at this second piece of advice: How the hell do you know a guy's cock size before the Moment of Truth? (Though many guys who advertised on the web showed pictures of their cocks, many did not.) Still, I knew that the time had come for me to act on my fantasy.

After about two weeks of looking at and answering ads on the various gay websites, I was beginning to get a bit discouraged. Most of the guys that I spoke to or eventually had a drink with were just not what I was after. Some were too young, some were macho to the point that I was turned off, and some just did not seem to be interested in a first timer like myself.

Finally, I answered an ad by a guy, like myself, in his mid-fifties. I was pleasantly surprised when I met him for drinks as he was in great physical condition, like myself, had a pleasant, easygoing attitude and exuded a self-confidence that really appealed to me.

I did not wish to give away my status as a "virgin" so I acted as if I had been doing this for a while. I could see that he was attracted to me and when he asked me if I wanted to come over to his place, I readily accepted.

When we got to his place, we sat down in his living room for a glass of wine. At this point I guess my nervousness began to show. He smiled easily at me and casually mentioned that I had a great body and that he was really glad that I had accepted his invitation to come over. I tried to be as cool as possible and told him that I needed another glass of wine.

When he brought the wine, he sat down across from me and casually rubbed his crotch saying, "You know, I haven't gotten off for over a week".

Trying to appear as cool as possible (even though I was nervous as hell) I