At 19 (6 years ago) I had this overwhelming desire to suck someone off. I would watch a lot of porn and masturbate thinking about how it would feel having one in my mouth. But after cumming, these thoughts would go away and I would feel embarrassed that I even thought about this because I was a straight guy.

But one day I got sick and tired of thinking about it and decided to go ahead try it. So I went to a gay chat room and started talking to this 21yo with the screen name “Illsuckyoudry”. He did not have a face pic and our conversation was short. We talked about giving each other a blowjob and we ended up meeting at the train station and proceeded to his house.

After arriving I could tell that he was older than 21, he looked more like 27 White, 5’9” with an average slim build and short hair. But at that point it did not matter because I made it this far and was ready to give my first blowjob.

We went to his bedroom at the back of the house and he closed the door. He started to strip and showed me his hard dick, this is when it finally hit me that I was here to suck another man. He told me to take off my clothes but I was too nervous and instead just removed my pants. He then lay on the bed naked and told me politely to come here and start it off. At first I reluctantly and nervously leaned onto his bed and grabbed his dick. I wanted to start off with a limp dick, but he was already rock hard and when I looked at it, it appeared a little smaller than mine, but when I put it in my mouth it felt so huge. The head felt like soft velvet and the first part of my mouth was filled with it, it was an unbelievable feeling.

I began to suck it slowly, gently moving my soft puffy lips and tongue up and down. I could not believe that I was sucking someone and in the back of my head saying to myself, “am I really sucking a guy off?” and “wow I am really doing this?” But after a minute I got used to it and some of the nervousness went away and for the first time I knew what it was like to feel submissive. To him it was probably just another blowjob, but to me it was an exciting first time experience.

I started to deep throat him all of the way down to his balls and all I can hear is him moaning along with the wet slurping sound of me blowing him (big turn-on). I was amazed at how horny I was and I had his shaft very wet and my saliva flowed down to his balls. It was my first time and I nipped his large head with my teeth a few times, which I apologized for and kept sucking. I made up for my mistakes by sucking him deeper and taking his entire dick into my mouth and holding it here while licking the bottom with my tongue. I was thinking to myself, “wow I’m working really hard at doing this blowjob right so this guy can cum in my mouth!” This was an odd thought for me because I don’t see myself as gay, so this guy was really getting a treat from me by me submitting to him and being