[LoveLikeWinter]

It seems to me that some stuff has been happening that seems to be going out of my control. Most of y'all might know me. I pop in and out, but now I have some issues.

I am a sophomore in college right now. I love to write stories. Especially about Todd. You might have read some of mine. Well, most of that stuff isn't true. Just close. Well, I gave the hottest guy in the world head a few weeks ago. Bad thing...He has a girlfriend! Well, the situation that got me into giving him head, was him asking me to write a research paper for him. I am academically apt to handle the situation, but I really didn't want to, since I had a paper of my one to write that was do the next week. But Todd told me that he would do anything for me, anything.

I laughed at the situation, but that night, I texted him(the joys of technology) and told him that I wanted something for doing his paper. He offered me money, but I quickly declined the offer. I wanted more. I wanted to give him head. He, surprisingly agreed to the situation and let me give him head.

That night, as I was drifting off to sleep, he called me, but since I was half-asleep, I came off kind of angrily. He told me that he would text me. He asked me, "Have you ever taken it from behind?" I answered honestly and told him, "No I haven't." He then proceeded to ask me, to my huge surprise, "Can I do it to you tomorrow?" I told him, "Yeah, but you might want to bring some lube." He finished the conversation by telling me, "I don't know. I was just thinking. Goodnight." The next day I gave him head. It was the most amazing experience of my life. I have given head before, but this man was just so perfect and sensual. But once I told somebody about my escapade and it got out to everyone, even his girlfriend, I learned that I had to quickly deny it to everyone. We are now really good friends, but I want more. I hope for him and his girlfriend to break up. Is that wrong?

But now I need some help. I have told him that I want to have sex with him, but now he says that he has a girlfriend and loves her. But he has shown effort of truly caring about me and my well-being. He makes little efforts to do things that I wouldn't even normally do. So, I would like for y'all to analyze the situation for me and tell me what you think and what I should do with this straight(at least I think...!) man. Please help!
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"I met my love before I was born. He wanted love. I taste of blood. He bit my lip and drank my war from years before."

"Love Like Winter"-AFI

[squally]

The thought of you wanting him to break up with his girlfriend is not wrong, because you just want to be with him. It will only be wrong if you intentionally have done something to break them up.

It seem to me like he's taken, so I don't sugguest pursuing a relationship with him B/C you will probably end up hurting yourself.

BTW when you say he does little things and shown effort of truly caring about you, what do you mean by that?

[LoveLikeWinter]

What I mean by him showing small things that show that he does care about me, are that he always makes sure that he tells me, while texting, goodnight whenever I tell him that I'm going to bed. I personally wouldn't do that. He replys to every single message I send him, regardless of what they say. He just makes an effort to make me a happy person.
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"I met my love before I was born. He wanted love. I taste of blood. He bit my lip and drank my war from years before."

"Love Like Winter"-AFI

[soulfulfun]

Well, I know this is an older posting and you may have already done it... or not
...I thought I'd give my more life-seasoned response. Love yourself enough that you don't have to 'need' to be with someone who is not the right person. This also means that if he is interested then make your move. It sounds like he does have interest. Just don't play that "gay guy having unfulfilled love for a 100% hetero" game to yourself. You're worth much more, like having a satisfying time with a guy.

In my teens I had regular sex with my best friend for a few years until he decided he wanted a girlfriend and wanted to be normal. He would still do things with me initially but then he just ended all of that. It took me years to get over the fact that maybe it was just a phase for him and happened to be real for me. I put myself through such horrible angst of longing and unsatisfied desire.

Life is so much easier when we don't try to swim upstream in these situations. Go with the flow. Release and float into someone who desires the same thing you desire. Then have fun...
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"You are just a thought away from the change you desire."

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